I wanted to live in an alternate reality

you may need to die to get there.
or suffer a head injury.
an alternate reality is not better.
isolation.
far more alone in the default, assigned version.
It’s not escapism or idealism.
it’s codified. watch.
neoclassical colonnades 
 setting foot on 
  Dodge Saturn tire tracks      swept aside 
   by Strauss snorting Dylithium crystals 
 in the search for spock 
                       or the voyage home
                     to see Cesare Borgia setting the phasers to stun--
                                ---IS
                                THat really Pavarotti's hand
                             in Dolly Parton's blouse---
 the winds of change---
                           blowing---
                castrati Uranus hands the reins over to Cronos
 with steady scissors-
                      HOLD STILL
           A gargantuan MRS. pac man
                     Knowing why the caged bird sings
 but not the blues
          Robert Johnson swishes Hydrogen Peroxide 
 to assuage Maya Angelou
                         crouches hesitantly
 with denture fixative on his knees
      Kissing the ground
                she walks on and on 
 shaking hips like a belly dancer the 
    pope grovels
                   before skimming 
 the yellow pages to hire out catered 
                  ambrosia for hedonistic benedictions
 the abbey of thelema
      smelling like teen spirit
   deodorized decay
 loves the scourge of flies that 
     fuse themselves to the shotgun-pelleted wall
       wondering
 who will come next
 Salome
    Jackie O
 narcissistic Donatello's David's 
                 androgynous mouth-fucked finality
           though
     Caravaggio isn't Goliath 
   but nonetheless 
 I'm missing his head
   his marbles his pager# 
 his bowler hatted appraisals of 
                      premodernist authenticity
    his blue light special price tags of parataxis 
 his decals of bumpersticker tribulation 
                   take up the old rugged cross 
                         and cut Gorbechev off in 
                             rush hours of Ecclesiastical traffic 
 hurrying desperately to recover the relationship
   and cancel the checks and love notes 
 scribbled impetuously at the height of the Iran contra affair
        I LOVE YOU FIDEL CASTRO
 I love wading through
   the flora and fauna with you
       fumbling with the keys to the Paracelsus flophouse
   fawning over Mussorgsky's tumbling Night down 
      the Hairpiece of Bald Mountain 
 with rye ergot and Dick Cheney 
    growing out of our soiled buried bodies
        reaping the harvest of Eleusinian mysteries and 
 going backward
 knowing full well what we'll 
                      do when we get there
     doing what thou wilt with the lush overgrowth
 pruning the luscious deadness of passionate put-ons 
    pretending to not see spiritless
                     matter bouncing along the tarmac
         at two hundred miles per hour 
 NOOOOOO ! ! !!! !!!!!!!!!   !!!
   not Buddy Holly 
       Richie Valens 
     the Big Bopper
 and two thousand hits of Ecstasy
       Stretching the sinews of truth 
 of steroid wrestling superstar
  Presidential hopefulness fizzling 
      in calorie-counted polls
                 calculating the popularity of a one-time try-it-out 
     once-in-a-lifetime 
                   BE=bopped    biological disaster
 REsurrection after resurrection 
                of Marilyn Monroe 
    promised but never received 
 foaming out of the corner of RFK's mouth
    reputations saved and clipped and glued 
                                         selectively
 THAT'S NOT THE SAME LASSIE 
   and you can't 
 tell me otherwise 
      and that's DICk VAN DYKE and not 
 CHarlie cHaplin or
    Robert Downey Jr being pulled
                  from the pitfalls and pratfalls
      of vulgar Aristophanes 
 ED WOOD 
 and John Waters 
 and just where the fuck do you think you are
    in General Hospital requesting 
               a X-ray chest examination
       of Sigourney Weaver
 the thing that lives in her 
 carbon dated
   a flower 
 the goddamned Rosicrucians again 
    Arriving at the scene 
       just in time to overdose
  WRONG WAY to the 
     WRONG ERA
                       the meter's still running 
 wait here
      Burroughs is busy shooting up in the bathroom…