Being afraid doesn’t hurt





I refuse certain truths
not that I lie, I keep some words even from myself
so I can go on




In a surge I thought I witnessed
you come bubbling up again to the
cooling surface


but it was only the hydrogenated oils
that solidify and turn their hopes of peptides
into cooked up beings




helplessly you flee from me to the streets, to the sewer grates
spreading your arms pretending they can be wings




There are some nights
carefree revelry turns into a sickening carelessness




Could I get so bored I cared again.




slipping upward to the verge of a crimson-toned gash:
a mouth open, willing, with hygienic breath,
it is important to conserve a few pieces and parts, mostly the teeth






free again in innocence
spreading and spreading and nothing now without me

the hurt that is no where in particular




If you never speak to me again
I will never speak again

To Rupture the Representational

Representational versus abstract is an outmoded dichotomy, says the truant, the hobo, the dystropic alien miming a ludic display. Abstraction is the domain of elites? Yes, but there is nothing left to see, so they were right. Representation is of the masses, their vehicle in popular culture where movies and comics obtain relevance above modernist achievement? Yes, but pleasure circulates as a ritual of consumption, a ritual where we feeeeeeel feeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeeel the sick need, and feel for the sick need, feeling around to get it again, the sick lack, the yearning for unoccupied womb to chew thru and go out the other side. The other side, a discolored thing begging ‘JUST FUCKING LET ME BE.’ What’s that? Representational conceptualization underlies the invisible herding? There is a push, THE push towards a shared, common, and holistic hermeneutic, and with it, a common apprehension? WELL FUCK ME. I DON’T WANT TO SEEM HAUGHTY OR CRASS.
 
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 the erotic is fatty tissues 
 And it is studious and an animal carcass is me learning to die most efficiently and herein is the reward 
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 Ok, get lost!  
THE REAL WAR AGAINST REPRESENTATION IS NOT FOR ABSTRACTION.
THE REAL WAR AGAINST ELITES IS NOT FOR POPULARITY, POPULAR CULTURE, POPULAR OPINION, POPULAR DISTRUST, POPULAR REVOLT, OR ANY FORCIBLY SHARED EXPERIENCE OR APPREHENSION.
REIFICATION SUCKS

IT’S A FUCKING SIMULATION, AFTER ALL.

I wanted to live in an alternate reality

you may need to die to get there.
or suffer a head injury.
an alternate reality is not better.
isolation.
far more alone in the default, assigned version.
It’s not escapism or idealism.
it’s codified. watch.
neoclassical colonnades 
 setting foot on 
  Dodge Saturn tire tracks      swept aside 
   by Strauss snorting Dylithium crystals 
 in the search for spock 
                       or the voyage home
                     to see Cesare Borgia setting the phasers to stun--
                                ---IS
                                THat really Pavarotti's hand
                             in Dolly Parton's blouse---
 the winds of change---
                           blowing---
                castrati Uranus hands the reins over to Cronos
 with steady scissors-
                      HOLD STILL
           A gargantuan MRS. pac man
                     Knowing why the caged bird sings
 but not the blues
          Robert Johnson swishes Hydrogen Peroxide 
 to assuage Maya Angelou
                         crouches hesitantly
 with denture fixative on his knees
      Kissing the ground
                she walks on and on 
 shaking hips like a belly dancer the 
    pope grovels
                   before skimming 
 the yellow pages to hire out catered 
                  ambrosia for hedonistic benedictions
 the abbey of thelema
      smelling like teen spirit
   deodorized decay
 loves the scourge of flies that 
     fuse themselves to the shotgun-pelleted wall
       wondering
 who will come next
 Salome
    Jackie O
 narcissistic Donatello's David's 
                 androgynous mouth-fucked finality
           though
     Caravaggio isn't Goliath 
   but nonetheless 
 I'm missing his head
   his marbles his pager# 
 his bowler hatted appraisals of 
                      premodernist authenticity
    his blue light special price tags of parataxis 
 his decals of bumpersticker tribulation 
                   take up the old rugged cross 
                         and cut Gorbechev off in 
                             rush hours of Ecclesiastical traffic 
 hurrying desperately to recover the relationship
   and cancel the checks and love notes 
 scribbled impetuously at the height of the Iran contra affair
        I LOVE YOU FIDEL CASTRO
 I love wading through
   the flora and fauna with you
       fumbling with the keys to the Paracelsus flophouse
   fawning over Mussorgsky's tumbling Night down 
      the Hairpiece of Bald Mountain 
 with rye ergot and Dick Cheney 
    growing out of our soiled buried bodies
        reaping the harvest of Eleusinian mysteries and 
 going backward
 knowing full well what we'll 
                      do when we get there
     doing what thou wilt with the lush overgrowth
 pruning the luscious deadness of passionate put-ons 
    pretending to not see spiritless
                     matter bouncing along the tarmac
         at two hundred miles per hour 
 NOOOOOO ! ! !!! !!!!!!!!!   !!!
   not Buddy Holly 
       Richie Valens 
     the Big Bopper
 and two thousand hits of Ecstasy
       Stretching the sinews of truth 
 of steroid wrestling superstar
  Presidential hopefulness fizzling 
      in calorie-counted polls
                 calculating the popularity of a one-time try-it-out 
     once-in-a-lifetime 
                   BE=bopped    biological disaster
 REsurrection after resurrection 
                of Marilyn Monroe 
    promised but never received 
 foaming out of the corner of RFK's mouth
    reputations saved and clipped and glued 
                                         selectively
 THAT'S NOT THE SAME LASSIE 
   and you can't 
 tell me otherwise 
      and that's DICk VAN DYKE and not 
 CHarlie cHaplin or
    Robert Downey Jr being pulled
                  from the pitfalls and pratfalls
      of vulgar Aristophanes 
 ED WOOD 
 and John Waters 
 and just where the fuck do you think you are
    in General Hospital requesting 
               a X-ray chest examination
       of Sigourney Weaver
 the thing that lives in her 
 carbon dated
   a flower 
 the goddamned Rosicrucians again 
    Arriving at the scene 
       just in time to overdose
  WRONG WAY to the 
     WRONG ERA
                       the meter's still running 
 wait here
      Burroughs is busy shooting up in the bathroom…

Leftover Reflux

Bilious George, the cantankerous little outline man, has a great idea. Put up some more junk, an immovable feast for the flies. Excess content. Filler. Leftovers. Consumed and then it comes back up.
It’s filler but it’s made to be consumed anyway. Soy, carrageenan, cellulose. Largely indigestible. Saying it’s fake trivializes the extent that progress is dependent on cheaper replacements. Cheapening is an alterative to higher pay. Inflation paranoia has infiltrated all politics, left and right.
I suffer from terrible reflux. Like Ezra Pound’s Cantos, time is scrambled up and regurgitated. A cheap replacement for now, where now could be a revolutionary moment in history, a time to make history as a deliberate act, not an old thing hanging around in crusty documents, shopworn mythos gobbling up a plate of tradition.
Leftovers are a suspicious symbol bearing the weight of overabundance but it is mostly among the middle and adjacent classes that leftovers are a sign of accumulation, a kitchen ripe for the conditions of overproduced potatoes and green beans so the entire family can bear witness to the fruits of wage labor. Worked so hard so we can each have a pie! The rich, on the other hand, not only throw out food on purpose, as an excess that is not to be reserved itself as a symbol, but as symbolic excess, the overabundance as a matter of disposal, a choice, an invisible remonstration as inarticulate as it is ignored.
I’m going to be sending you an email on the matter soon. Email is a kind of disposal. Gather up reactions, corrupted thoughts on the thing at hand, choose a chute, and send it off. Good. I’ve less to think about. Scroll past it. TL; DR. Good. It was in a foreign language, an object sullied and discolored on the oversaturated screen: poetry, a means for nonsense to pretend it can overcome the obvious, the dead ideas reproducing themselves as the basis of reality, a reality only those in pathological denial would say, ‘I’ve lost interest.’
Canned in guts, 100% preservation, kept isolated, a large dose, con carne, so juicy, the taste is locked in, tanker trucks pumping maximum sodium intake, forming a pillar in the gut, don’t look into the gut of the can, which I can be. As a matter of disposal.
Leftovers are saved. Saved in the belief that they have a future. A future at the table one or two days later. Or the rest will be scooped out into the garbage bin.

An Outroduction to Garbage Aesthetics

look at those feetfeetfeet. his pheromones are musty and taste like yeast, but tonguing the superstructure as it enables or supports capitalism is heroic. is a man always a crime. yes it’s a crime. i grew into an advert. an adverb. an additive in an additive. but if garbage aesthetics is relevant it is in the atmospheric everyday norms, habits, beliefs and it contributes to a tornado haze as heavier emissions than the grey plumes cumming out of smokestacks, so we can dance in the piss rain, enjoying our mental fog unable to produce art let alone product let alone masses for art for products for masses, old music that’s in tune by way of talent, shitclouds growing on the horizon and i honk my horn get the fuck of the way, i make underwear pollutants, i inhale the smoke b/c the oxygen has treasonous aims. carbon is organic so what’s all the fuss about, we’re going to die in the garbage fucking and flailing so happy finally suffocated by the bags and bags and bags and bags someone’s cackling as the burial proceeds a sanctimonious cackle the cackle of art itself the garbage aesthetics that crushes us all down to particulate,  says
Actions: go. make more ugly shit. it’s unreasonable.
Actions: go. make more ugly shit. it’s unreasonable.
Actions: go. make more ugly shit. it’s unreasonable.
Actions: go. make more ugly shit. it’s unreasonable.
Actions: go. make more ugly shit. it’s unreasonable.
I suffer from aesthetics

the more the appearances of things are snapped into place
the right place a pleasant fit
not simply a fit not only what it looks like but that it looks good
good not sexual
not sexually attractive
not a sexual portrait not that various genitals pictographically rendered
are not aesthetic but the aesthetic is seducing but not seducing into sex
wherein sex is nerves nerve endings like tentacles the tips of tentacles instinctively trying to grab or touch the violent stimuli 
Speak for your self this garbage man is aesthetic and sexual! Look at HIM and fuck him until it’s not him anymore just the rag bone garbage the rough edges and hollow bones the things that got old but couldn’t be worshipped couldn’t be re-valued couldn’t be picked off couldn’t be re-lived couldn’t be ugly couldn’t be known because i could love technology forever the beauty it contrives more than haunts its presence is retroactive and it fucks me until it’s not me anymore just what’s perfect

Revel in the bogus delusions.

“A r t m u st de lu sio n a l! R e v el in t he all t h e bo gus de lu s i on s . “

it all depends on how you look at it
the patient
 
can’t hide
behind shared understanding 
is it shared
is it induced
can’t hide
can’t hide

if they are reintegrating
the dissolute
hauntings or mainstream hallucinations
or the


collages of denigrations
and


 aspersions cast into behavioral patterns
"Art must delusional! Revel in the all the bogus delusions."
i express internalized massacre happy yes thank you i’m happy you should be a nice friend
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the best dia gnosis die agnosis must stress to the patient there’s no known methodology to transfigure the ills of the social body the illusory cohesion of objects isn’t represented here

JUST PLAYING PRETEND JUST HAVING FUN

the illusory cohesion of objects isn’t represented here [or here]

     Object status is an honorable designation to flagflagelatteflagellate the patient

“Art must delusional! Revel in the all the bogus delusions.”

to diagnose the illness of the self is to interpret similar incidental behavioral patterns

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Artists are deluded in their opposition

who again is the patient

but their opposition is nonetheless sheer corruption, a value devoid of value.
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the social body

no, the patient must be a figure, a unit, a singularity, even it if it’s a

a wreckage

no one no one knows no one i express no aftermath no  wreckage not a scream i express no causes no beginnings it’s not a mouth: it’s not a valve it couldn’t speak i can’t expresss the end          it doesn’t look like a mouth, but as its stretching so far, end to end, it’s disintegrating no one

no one knows

no one

there’s no patient

here’s a good hiding place

Figuratively Spoken / unspeaking

Undefined. As it should be.

Figuratively Speaking

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You’re the unreceptive audience, front row and uncentered.

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Erection declines normally once a mass shooting concludes.

The open circular

Figuratively Speaking

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Figuratively Speaking

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and Figure continued and Figure dissolving elsewhere in a different Figure.

My job is to farm imitation blood, farming imitation blood in the darkest hour. The neighboring farm had rows of clomiphene citrate, ginned on wartime fervor. Take one for the team, the leader cajoles an empty room during the broadcast. Population decline is a serious treat, or large-scale suicide threat, depending on my drug of choice.

Figuratively Speaking

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Ensconced in an armchair, armchair critiquing/valorizing the decline of Western civilization, a sperm daub that makes its way down the inner thigh and pools on to the seat of the black vinyl.   

“Don’t end your life with a preposition.” – A billboard twenty miles long spells out this injunction FIGURE made up of my family, thousands of long-lost fathers and cousins fifty times removed, all of them smiling knowingly,, speaking Figure purged and Figure expurgatedNothing stops , speaking Figure purged and Figure expurgatedthem from simultaneously turning to look down towards me, except the glue that holds them to the sign pulls their skin. Their skin, stringy like melty cheese, stretches effortlessly. Some sloughs off. , speaking Figure disrupted and Figure continued and Figure dissolving elsewhere in a different Figure.I have a handful. I ate most of my arm before the rotted beams snapped and the whole structure fell on me.

Multiple heads over time should just be one head at a time, if time is thoughtful, if time is assembled correctly and the toluene dried. Time is not on my side, however. Figure quickly shoots me in the back of the head.

Multiple heads. 

Fuck time. Figure excerpted, speaking Figure purged and Figure expurgated, speaking Figure invaded and Figure corrupted, speaking Figure disrupted and Figure continued and Figure dissolving elsewhere in a different Figure.

People from the future are stupid. They must know what happened. Look around, people. I’m the wasted future, a continent-sized fossil effigy of everything compacted together, circling a gaping wound in the ground and giggling while going down the drain of immateriality. The future unrolled, the prophesies backfired and didn’t come true, so I’m the lone Figure standing here reconstructing a total disaster for posterity’s sake because time is a dumb shit tourist that forgot its camera. Take a picture, asshole, it will last longer, sure, but unlike time, I will never end.

Even in the remotest desert, it is said there is life, paginating and encoding. The miracle of life!

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No one else…

under the stars…under the moon… he told stories at the campfire…i miss grandpa, the time before Parkinson’s and palsy…i miss the smell…the smell is what i miss the most
no one else has seen
 
jaws          eating jaws
catching in                                      the inaudible
teeth as they are unzipped
 
                 incessantly chewing
taken aback                              by a missing quotient
           moving with a nd a gainst g ravity
the logarithms  decry the loss
it's  just         paranoia
             an  eviscerated        mess
structurally            unsound parallelogram shifts the past
crevices of    footprints
                     out of                            context
and it                  spoils
the radiation       poisoning                           turning them white
 
time no one else           has seen
subtly melting              away
 
the metallic taste of blood is relative
       blood relatives
their               nascent fruit
moving
in the musty attic insulation
pink and                quadrupling in weeks
 
    was it self defense
no one else               has seen
lifelike stillness that creeps              across the surface of the colorless waters
only knowing    jaundiced
             yellow streetlight                      
                                       it’s spoiled fruit
no one else             has seen
                                 so much that has to be eaten
 
who’s eating
                    better to touch the
campfire
       burning off                           poisoned blood
 
who’s burning
with and against
a transient sense       in the tenebrous blue
 
it could be blood entering the lineage
 
that's controlling     

the phases of the moon
 
the metallic taste of blood
no one else has seen
 
pulling the  burnt skin off of the roof of the mouth
        who's mouth
 
still struggling to chew 

that last morsel
no one else has seen
the air as it thickens or
the ashes buried
 
unseen
what happens 

to all the prayers and apologies

when they can't pull apart conscience 
recognize the extent I’ve changed

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